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by - Tuesday, December 31, 2013
I am the biggest procrastinator I've ever known in my life.

Menulis itu tidak susah sebenarnya. Menuangkan apa yang kamu pikirkan ke dalam rangkaian kata yang syahdu dan nyaman dibaca, itu yang menurutku susah. Apalagi jika yang kamu pikirkan dan ingin kamu tuliskan sudah mengendap di dalam otak berbulan-bulan.
Basi, kan, jadinya.


(Ditulis di tengah-tengah proses TC FUD Palapsi 2014)

Being an Early Adult

by - Monday, June 10, 2013
Kadang-kadang saya bingung menjalani masa-masa 'usia tanggung' seperti sekarang ini. Mungkin 19 tahun sudah tidak bisa dibilang tanggung lagi sih. Kalau menurut psikologi perkembangan, 19 tahun termasuk dalam kategori dewasa awal. Bukan remaja tanggung yang hobinya labil kesana-kemari. Tetapi, di dalam siklus hidup saya agaknya saya belum sepenuhnya menjadi 'dewasa awal'. Yang saya tahu, adult (orang dewasa, kb.) dengan mature (dewasa, ks.) jelas berbeda. Dari arti katanya secara harafiah saja sudah berbeda, terlebih lagi 'makna' di dalamnya.

Nah, yang jadi pertanyaan, dewasa itu yang bagaimana ya? Atau lebih tepatnya, menjadi dewasa itu bagaimana ya? 

Konsep dewasa, mature, dipikiran saya simple saja; mandiri dan bertanggung jawab akan apa yang jadi pilihannya. Jika mandiri = mampu hidup sendiri, mungkin saya kalah jauh dengan sebagian besar teman kampus saya yang merantau kuliah di Jogja dan ngekost. Karena hampir 19 tahun hidup saya dihabiskan di kota tercinta ini dan ada beberapa aspek yang saya masih gantungkan kepada orang tua. Dan mungkin itu menjadi salah satu faktor mengapa saya agak susah meninggalkan rumah untuk jarak yang jauh dan waktu yang lama. Tetapi jika menyangkut hal lain, bisa jadi saya lebih mandiri dibanding mereka. Who knows?

Kemudian, bertanggung jawab. Nah, mungkin bagi saya inilah tantangan terbesar dalam menuju proses pendewasaan, bertanggung jawab. Bertanggung jawab atas hal sekecil apapun. Atas uang 500 perak milik seorang teman yang mungkin kita jatuhkan di selokan, atas piring kotor yang kita pakai setelah makan, atas pembagian kerja dalam mengerjakan tugas kelompok, atas keluhan-keluhan yang kita lontarkan ke orangtua.
Intinya, apa yang kamu putuskan ataupun lakukan, be responsible.

At last, do you consider yourself as matured already? *pertanyaan intrapersonal*

Fiction (1)

by - Wednesday, May 29, 2013
It was a long pause until he turns his head to see the front door.
There’s no footsteps...
She stares at his door.
I’m waiting... I want to count every footsteps you take until you get here...
She breaks down. She buries her face with her hand on the table.
I can’t hear it... I can’t hear your footsteps anymore...
She’s alone there, crying.
I thought you’d be here by now...


Full story will be posted real soon!

Well, pretty true.

by - Thursday, May 23, 2013
”It’s hard to leave — until you leave. And then it’s the easiest goddamned thing in the world.“
Quentin Jacobsen, Paper Towns

A Common 'One Day' Story

by - Wednesday, May 01, 2013

One day, a girl wants a boy to tell her his deepest thoughts. She wants to hear that he still loves her. She wants him to ask her questions about what's been going on so she can explain to him. She realizes that if he asks questions, it means he still cares and still wants to save the relationship.
She wants to go back to the way things were and hopes that by explaining everything to him, it will clear up any misunderstanding that may have occurred during their time apart.

Some people... They just see two completely different people, trying to make a what seems impossible relationship work. But, they can't understand that love for someone defies all logic and reasoning.

Happy Mayday.

Kodaline's All I Want and Some of My Chirps

by - Monday, April 29, 2013
I accidentally found this epic and heart-moving-kind-of-music video of a Dublin band, Kodaline, across my Twitter timeline. I love it so friggin much it brought me a lonely and lost story in such deep lyrics. Well I assume the song is actually about some break-up thing, huh?

And, these hands just can't help but post the video here because... (do not expect to hear some credible reasons regarding to me posting this since you might not want to) I've actually been wanting to write yet I can't really think up something new, original, and intriguing. Plus, I sorta don't have any idea what to do with the random ideas HERE *pointing at my own head*. LOL I'm being too honest. No, because I like it either the music video or the song itself and this is one of my ultimate favorites. So I think I should (at least) make a share post as my appreciation :)

Anyway, prepare rolls of tissue, darlings.

 Let's see.. It was @inestjokro who shared this if I'm not mistaken.

Some Husky Talk

by - Thursday, April 11, 2013
I've always wanted to have a real pet. Yes, a real pet in my dictionary = the fur-bearing ones whom I can always take a walk with. Or I can spesifically say, a puppy.

Aside from the fact that I fear sharp canine teeth, moulted furs, and dripping salivas... look at those beautiful, soft fur! Puppies almost become the only pet that strike. But please note that I, honestly, still can't make my guts to literally hold and touch them with my own hands T__T *so why bother having pets if you ain't holding em* *rolling eyes*

I often go surfing to some dog lovers' sites just to look around and check out some pictures of my favorites, like Siberian Husky, Jack Russel, or Akita. The latter was a race Hachiko owned, that famous and faithful dog from Japan. He's so famous that the governor made a Hachiko statue that's now standing upright outside Shibuya Station. Too bad I didn't have a chance to visit and take some shots back then in Japan :( I'm pretty a fan of him, though.

But nothing can beat my admiration to this dashing Russian knight, Siberian Husky.

Siberian Husky. The most handsomest.
The huskies came from extremely cold and harsh environment of the Siberian Arctic, and were forced to pull heavy loads for very long distances through difficult condition. Those seem to be a quite realistic reason why huskies nowadays are used as working dog and pretty muscular. They're also highly intelligent and can excel in some obedience trials (mostly for sled-racing). Siberian Huskies are recognizable by their thickly furred double coat, sickle tail, erect triangular ears, and distinctive markings. (the italic part is the description as quoted in Wikipedia, since I'm too common to describe something I ain't expert at. LOL)

Ah! And also, unlike any other regular dogs which bark, they howl instead! Cool, aren't they?

I'm not really sure since when I fell in love with huskies. Maybe after my junior crush in high school changed his Twitter username to SIBERI(an) (hu)SKY. Hahaha. Okay, just kidding.

I was so fascinated (to siberian husky, not my junior crush) I almost got into road accident with a public bus because I was after a car with a very gorgeous Siberian Husky in it. XD

My parents, especially my mother, doesn't really like seeing some furry living stuffs hanging around the house (except Choky and Chibi, persian cats of my aunt and my cousin, well-treated and proven to be 100% clean). That's why, I have only petted some "safe" animals like fish, hamsters, and turtles since I was little.

Besides, my family are all Moslems. There's a paradigm in society that kind of restricts us from keeping a dog at home, and that's also what has been becoming my belief until now. Though it's not really written in Quran (about the restriction), but most of the Moslem scholar and society have such notion.

Why is that?

Basically in Quran, dogs are said to be desecrated (from their saliva, but later I knew that it's actually the whole body of the dog as well). Although Rasulullah SAW had never prohibited to look after dogs, but from the shari'ah, Islam tend to watch over the beneficiaries of its adherents. That's why, the "law" was set to keep us from being uncleaned/desecrated. But, in some condition, keeping a dog at home is allowed when living in some rural area where it lacks guardians. (from what I read on a trusted literature)

So, conclusion is? Well, pull it out yourself :D 

Canned Food

by - Thursday, April 11, 2013

"The concept of canned food was invented in 1810. But, the can opener was invented in 1858. Weird, isn't it?
But, those kind of things happen. Important things often come after the fact. Things like love and one's lifestyle.
So, would you reconsider one last time?"
Saikou no Rikon, ep. 7.

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by - Tuesday, April 09, 2013

I really can't stand feeling and looking so weak,
doing something I love but end up indiscernible,
being put low,

and then... getting dashed down.

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